got a friend in me?

There’s this thing with nonchalant friendships where you can go months without talking to them but when you catchup it’s like nothing’s changed but it’s also not the same as it used to be.

To be honest, this is not really for me, because if can go on without talking to me for a month or even a week maybe then go on and continue it for a year and then for the rest of your life because I’m done with you and your bullshit.

That’s the thing with making new friends I guess, they don’t get you like that right?

Maybe that’s the reason I still visit my old school with my friends, the ones who were there with me from the beginning, walking with her reminds me that even in these fast paced times, when everyone and everything is changing around me, she’s still the same girl with older sister vibes telling me to watch both sides of the road before crossing or giving me side-eye when I say something mean out of context.

Its not just the memories but what makes our bond special is that I can be the same kid I once was in 5^th grade with her and she wont judge me for it or ask me to grow up, for her this version of mine is perfect because that’s all she’s known about me, that’s not the good bit.

You know what’s special about this? Its enough for her, I am enough for her, that’s something I miss among my new friends.

In this new age, where every one wants to be among the 1 percent, there are people like me, who, in their wildest fantasies, only wish for a bucket of ice cream on a weekend movie night with friends, to be honest, we don’t even have to watch a movie, I just want to see them argue on what movie to pick while I have my chocolate chip scoop.

I know this might be a little childish, but I know not many people read my blogs so this is kind of a safe space, until I was 18, by biggest goal was to celebrate my birthday on a beach with no one else around, just me and my dark forest cake, until I actually tried it and it was a breezy evening so sand started floating with the wind and started sticking on the cake and that’s how I wasted my first 1000 bucks but it was a good memory I guess.

So that’s it for today, if you don’t know me then don’t worry I am much more responsible in real life and if you do know me that shut your mouth, peace out.

 

you'll be happy anyways

 

It’s been a while, finally done with my exams and I’m so carefree as if something like result doesn’t exist but on the bright side we are done with the semester and I hope that you don’t carry anything, and by ‘anything’ I mean everything! The people, the gossip, the regrets, the good “bad” decisions, onto the next one.

I hope that you don’t carry that on to the next one and start treating everyone as human because you have to give them that much space, all of us are doing this for the first time and no one is really here to impress you.

On the contrary, you also don’t owe shit to no one, so you do you and see where it goes, how it goes and tell me about it.

I’m saying this because I want you to live your life to the fullest, because you’ll be doing this for a long time, long after you’ve finished college, long after you’re done with your job and long after you retire, you’ll be doing this till you’re 6ft under (what happens after may vary with the religion you’ve chosen so that’s on you)

But what happens now is the real thing you should be yearning for, ask yourself, what would you do right now if you weren’t scared?

Go crash a wedding, do illegal things with your friends, propose your crush then reject her if she says yes (because of bad taste), live your life on your terms

(Unless you have a goddess of a girlfriend, then you you’re pretty much done with your life what else do you need bhai just do what she says, some drown while some die of thirst)

What I want to say is ke you’re going to be happy in the end(because who doesn’t like death) the real question is how you want to reach the end, no one says that you have to be miserable now to be happy later on, like for real, just look at me if you want an example, I'm miserable now but i'll also be miserable later on, the law of averages doesn't work like that babe.

bye for now, will try to post more and for my college peeps, see you next semester, this time we'll definitely buy new shirts and pants for him(iykyk)