𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝙸 𝚖𝚎𝚝 𝚒𝚗 𝙾𝚌𝚝𝚘𝚋𝚎𝚛.....

I'm writing this, as October is approaching my door steps, cold nights, with shades of rain, knocking on my door, its here to take me, take me back to her.

Have you ever laid your eyes on someone and thought, maybe....this is what heaven looks like.

It all started on 22nd Oct, first month of college was coming to an end, i was coming back to college after performing stand-up comedy through out the weekend, but there was not a single bit of tiredness on my face, because i knew i will finally get to see her smile again, she sat in front of me, looking tired from the journey( even i still don't know why is my college 30 minutes away from the railway station, like c'mon what were they even thinking), after settling down she asked me, " you're looking happy today, something happened over the weekend?".

the first thought that came in my mind was, " all this time she knew i EXISTED!!!", 

i said," yeah I had a good time, nothing much, what about you?", now what i really wanted to say was, "it doesn't really matter if I'm looking happy or sad, what matters in this moment is you're looking at me".

but this is not your typical college drama, this story does not have a interesting ending because i did not have the courage for it, i finally realized, the moment you fall in love, the final act is of letting go.

Now coming to the last day of college, i was already missing the place i once dreaded, board exams passed quickly( but like kidney stones), had fun with friends, and yeah she's happy now, with someone else, but that's a story for another day.

now I'm sitting in another college, pursuing law, not much is different, first month of the first year is coming to an end, and I'm sitting here with regrets from my past, the good thing is, my fear of losing her finally ended....when i lost her.

until next time, leave a comment if you like this and you can reach me out on elusive_zahid